The instant Sunday Times bestseller.

'A brave and vulnerable book by a very, very funny woman' – Joe Lycett

'A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious' – Romesh Ranganathan

'Only Suzi Ruffell can take anxiety & make it funny. Relatable, hilarious & educational to boot' – Aisling Bea

Does peaking in high school ruin you for life?
Was Miley Cyrus right, is it all about the climb (when it comes to building a career?)
And what – scientifically – is the best way to mend a broken heart?

Comedian Suzi Ruffell is considering life's big questions.

In this brutally honest, funny, and often moving memoir, Suzi winningly tells her life story, and asks a host of experts to answer the tricky questions it prompts along the way. Diamond life advice comes from the likes of Elizabeth Day, Dolly Alderton, Charlene Douglas, Laura Bates, Dr Kirren Schnack, and more.

From masking anxiety with musical theatre and struggling to find her groove at school, on stage, and in her love life, to (eventually) coming out, falling in love, and becoming a parent, Suzi lays her life bare with trademark wit, verve and style.

Am I Having Fun Now? is riveting, relatable and revealing. Studded with brilliant, cutting observations on feminism, being working class in the world of arts and comedy, LGBTQ+ equality and the up- and downsides of ambition, it's perfect reading for fans of books by Fern Brady, Elizabeth Day, Romesh Ranganathan, Sara Pascoe and Tom Allen.

An honest, thoughtful and superb accompaniment to our anxious times. This is not just a book by a very funny comedian. It also acts as a soothing balm to the mysterious symptoms of anxiety. A brave and vulnerable book by a very, very funny woman. -- Joe Lycett
Funny, compassionate and true. Ruffell’s wit and kindness on the page soothes the soul and makes you feel less alone. -- Elizabeth Day
People will love this book. -- James Acaster
A brilliant representation of anxiety made hilarious. -- Romesh Ranganathan
Only Suzi Ruffell can take anxiety & make it funny. Relatable, hilarious & educational to boot. -- Aisling Bea
Brilliantly honest, beautifully written and will help so many people. -- Josh Widdicombe

An excellent book, I want to give everyone I know - from my teenage niece to my sixty-year-old Dad.
So brilliant.

-- Maisie Adam
A beautifully sensitive book from one of Britain's best comedians. -- Tom Allen
Honest, hilarious and totally relatable. Simply wonderful, I related so hard to every chapter. I LOVED IT. -- Rosie Jones
A really funny and honest book. A work of such importance. -- Jon Richardson
Moving, funny, real, warm and beautiful. Fantastic. -- Giovanna Fletcher
Suzi has managed to write a memoir that acts as confidante, agony aunt and your best friend in one warm, honest and beautifully written book. -- Jen Brister
God, it made me laugh, at the same time think “oh yep-that’s like my little anxious brain box too” comfort and LOLs from one of the best in the biz. -- Ellie Taylor
A warm, witty and fantastically honest memoir * DIVA Magazine *

Suzi Ruffell, author of Am I Having Fun Now? is an award-winning stand up comedian, writer, radio presenter and podcast host. She appears regularly on TV favourites such as Live at the Apollo, The Jonathan Ross Show and Mock the Week, and sells out headline shows at leading venues around the country. Her video clips – on everything ranging from smear tests to having a geezer dad – have been viewed by tens of millions on TikTok, YouTube and Instagram.

Suzi's hit podcasts include Like Minded Friends with Tom Allen, Big Kick Energy with Maisie Adam, and nine seasons of her solo offering, Out, on which she has interviewed LGBTQ+ luminaries including Dame Kelly Holmes, Self Esteem, Scott Mills, Hannah Gadsby, the Reverend Richard Coles, Mae Martin and Skin.